David Your Goliath
Nov 18, 2015
In my journey, in the storms, in the sunshine, I'm discovering who I am. Actually, I'm discovering who the I AM is |Exodus 3:14| in the midst of this journey: through the storms and sunshine.
I wrote a post earlier this year where I discussed the process of breaking free from the cage the world put me in. How my identity was based on how everyone looked at me and what I should be.
In the course of the process, God was leading me to His purpose for me and the calling on my life. "A stamp of freedom" was written to map out the stages of my passion--something that is still unfolding before me.
I wanted to lay out the foundation of my blog. I wanted to put into existence the ideas that float around in my head. I wanted to say things on the blog that would get people thinking about who they really are in their faith and who they represent. I mean, let’s be real--we are all afraid to be judged, and sometimes we don't vocalize our internal feelings. Sometimes transparency isn't an easy thing. But what we have to understand is as believers our one standard is Christ. There are many ways to reach out to people about Christ, and in those things, depending what they are, the outcome will be different every time. I don't have to preach to you to prove that God's working in every aspect of my life. I don't have to lay out basic guidelines and teach you how to live your life. Nonetheless, that is not what my calling is-- I would rather leave it to those who are more specialized in those areas. I truly want those who read my post to discover themselves in Christ. To see my imperfect life as God’s saving Grace constantly working. Sometimes the struggle doesn't mean it's over and the battle doesn't mean you are going to lose--even when it does feel like it sometimes. ( Man, writing this right now has me wishing that my mindset was always like this LOL. I'm working on it though).
But...
There's a greater purpose. Christ overcame death to give me life.
The vision for my blog—well, when I started I didn't have one, to be honest.
I actually started one a year before, hated it and completely shut it down.
My desire to write was waning. My leaves were dying. The stems could no longer carry the water and give life to me. My writing felt forced, but there was always this silent urgency tugging on my heart to keep writing. So in January 2015 I decided to stop complaining and get the job done. It's quite funny how the blog came to be. On the quest to start blogging again I came across a blog I started in 2010 called For The Sake of Love, which was intended to discuss my journey in University. I had completely forgotten that I had started a blog. I knew it had to be only God who brought me back to the place that was intended to jumpstart the changes in my life.
A period of darkness.pain.brokeness.
Undoubtedly, at that time God knew that I wasn't ready. Coming across the blog gave me so much peace, though. It screamed authenticity. I felt that I understood the old me, but this time in a more mature, divine way. God was refining me and preparing me for the next stage of where ever he was taking me ... and it was for the sake of his LOVE.
In the past, I battled with negative thoughts (sometimes still do), compared myself with everyone around me. I mean, growing up I wasn't the prettiest. Acne had decided to make a home on my face which destroyed myself esteem. Oh yea, I can't forget the talent,( ha what talent?) I had none. I couldn't sing, dance, and I was definitely not the smartest out of the bunch.
I envied those whose gifts were obvious.
I tried to prove to myself time and time again that God didn't love me because of what was humanly glorified. Don't believe the hype; sometimes our most precious features are the ones that are over looked.
I came across this verse the other day :
37 The Lord who rescued me from the paw of the lion and the paw of the bear will rescue me from the hand of this Philistine.”
Saul said to David, “Go, and the Lord be with you.”
...
50 So David triumphed over the Philistine with a sling and a stone; without a sword in his hand he struck down the Philistine and killed him.
| 1 Samuel 17:37, 50|
Now most people who have read the story of David and Goliath ( if you haven't I encourage you to check it out) know that Goliath was more physically inclined to defeat David, but David knew the Lord was with him and because of that he triumphed over him with a sling and a stone. Something so simple but yet he was able to defeat the Giant.
We over look what’s inside of us because of the Giants that tell us in our minds and all around us that we can't overcome. Our gifts aren't or won't always be noticed by everyone. Sometimes we doubt ourselves and what were capable of. But remind yourself our battles are won in our trust in God.
I can confidently say that because of the Goliath's that I’ve faced:
I can confidently say that because of the Goliath's that I’ve faced:
I discovered Gods love;
Fell in Love;
Have built solid friendships,
realized my family’s love for me
and understand that failure isn't the end…
It's just the beginning.
for the sake of his love,
NanaOhh.
NanaOhh.
I'm so anxious today.
I'm nervous, sad, weary, stressed but hopeful.
I guess I'm hopeful because although I can not see him I know hes's with me.
In my darkness and in my clutter...
Today is just one of those days, when I slowly have to pick up the pieces.
I FEEL!
the odds are against me..
I'm weak.
But
I pray that..
I won't fall apart, trying to put the pieces of my clutter back together.
CHRIST
eternal ROCK
carry the pieces for me.
and,
set my anxious heart free!
For the sake of His Love,
NanaOhh.
Momentary
Oct 29, 2015
When I think about my present situation, I feel that the gift of grace and its power doesn't seem to quiet apply to my life. I'm trying to run ahead of myself and figure things out, but somehow i'm just coming up short and incomplete. The journey of my faith hasn't been the prettiest. The power that Christ has over my life has been almost nonexistent to me. I need the help to really see the hope that lies ahead of me. I need the truth to set me free from the bondage that is currently clinging to my life that I feel like I can't overcome.
I'm currently a mess..
A couple of days ago while I skimmed through the bible, I came across this verse, " For the son of Man came to seek and save the lost".| Luke 19:10|
In that brief moment as I pondered on the scripture I realized that although it has been 3 years since I got saved, I am still feeling lost. Now to be clear the lost feeling, which i'm talking about isn't the one you might be thinking of. This type of lost is a feeling of incompleteness that's overshadowing my soul.
At that moment it had become obvious to me: the high for me had died out, the christian music I had been listening to was becoming repetitive. To be frank I was getting bored. Every thing in my life seemed to be moving in an inconsistent cycle. Was Christ not enough ? The idea of Christ not being enough played in my head over and over again. I battled the doubt and his love and still I was finding myself unable to grasp the truth in that moment--even though I know the truth.
And to tell you the truth, this is the time where many people fall apart and then give up. They can't deal with the inconsistencies and the not knowing in their relationship with God. The flesh seems more desirable. The things of the world seem more fun--less boring. They are tired of waiting for God to make a move in their life.
In part that is sort of how I feel.
Of course I know the world views Jesus to be a fictional character; did the man really exist? Was he just a myth? I mean...What an unusual story that God would send his son who was actually God, to die for humanity for a sin that they committed in the first place.It seems too good to be true or just not even realistic some may say. It sounds more like a silly fictional story that could be made into a Disney movie.
Well..this story changed my life. As I pondered some more on the scripture I realized the power of the Gospel. God came to seek me and save me. He's real. I can personally say I have experienced him and although things aren't perfect in my life his presence is tattooed across my heart.
JESUS! will always be the answer
So I know...
Even though I feel like this, this is only momentary.
For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, |2 Corinthians 4:17|
I will overcome the bondage that has been currently placed in my life;the truth shall set me free. I know the hope that lies ahead of me will help me; that the power Christ has over my life is my reality. The journey of my faith hasn't been the prettiest but the filth in my heart will not be the death of me. Therefore, running ahead of myself will leave me incomplete if I don't rely on the power of grace.
Side note: I know there are many Christians as myself who are in this stage, where the fire that used to be in you is slowly dying out. Please don't give up, God is going to work it out. Just hold on. I'm praying for you!!
for the sake of his Love,
NanaOhh.
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