God
Smooth Paths
Mar 19, 2015
I really wanted to share my devotions this morning from Isaiah 26:7-8. It put so much things in perspective for me, many times I struggle to trust God. I get easily frustrated or anxious if I can't seem to figure out where life is heading for me... I panic. Reading this verse made me realize that those who seek God and have died to their old ways and pursue righteousness, do not walk on steep or rough paths because God will smooth it out for them. Not only will He smooth out the paths that are currently rough in our lives but God will also smooth out the paths ahead of us too. As Christians what we need to ultimately do is to trust in Him and obey His word as He has command us to do. Sometimes it is not easy because I'm the biggest cry baby when it comes to trusting God and I am sure there are many who can relate with me, but I've realized that my feelings are fickle and they can change like the weather but the word of God stands forever. It is the word that enables us, gives us strength, wisdom, knowledge, understanding, wipes our tears and teaches us major principles on life and how to get by. GOD is so amazing, He freely works it out for our good when we don't deserve it. I'm so thankful for His mercies and His endless grace because who knows where we would be without them. I'm praying for all those who struggle to trust God, be encouraged you're not the only one. God is working, He will turn it around for His name sake!
For the sake of his LOVE,
NanaOhh.
NanaOhh.
Empty Call
Mar 9, 2015
I miss you, I miss all that we used to be.
I can't fix my lips to express myself to you anymore,
lately I've been feeling empty and alone and there's no one who really understands how I feel but YOU. To you I'll probably never be enough and it sucks and my heart aches. I just want to get it right with you, I want to sit in your presence, cry and experience your Love.
I want to laugh and love on you and tell you all that goes on in my day and in my heart...
But these idols beckon me.
They call and I run, they tug on this heart of mine and I give in.
I'm just so weak to it all
And I really just want to make you proud but I think to myself
I've probably gone too far .
I just need you to listen to my cry and if its ok with you, could you send your daughter some help?
Just a little grace to get by, and some peace to calm my storm...
Lord please keep me as the apple of your eye and restore the joy of my salvation.
I can't fix my lips to express myself to you anymore,
lately I've been feeling empty and alone and there's no one who really understands how I feel but YOU. To you I'll probably never be enough and it sucks and my heart aches. I just want to get it right with you, I want to sit in your presence, cry and experience your Love.
I want to laugh and love on you and tell you all that goes on in my day and in my heart...
But these idols beckon me.
They call and I run, they tug on this heart of mine and I give in.
I'm just so weak to it all
And I really just want to make you proud but I think to myself
I've probably gone too far .
I just need you to listen to my cry and if its ok with you, could you send your daughter some help?
Just a little grace to get by, and some peace to calm my storm...
Lord please keep me as the apple of your eye and restore the joy of my salvation.
"Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me"(Psalms 51:12)
For the sake of his Love
NanaOhh.
Creating Space...
Jan 18, 2015
Sometimes I feel like I’m a burden, a burden to
myself, my friends, to my family and to my future. I feel like deadweight and
clutter just follows me around; Most of the time in my mind I’m running from
all my insecurities, fears, doubt and my past mistakes. Just as the sun rises
each morning and sets each day, these pop back into my head regardless of how
many times I try to bury them.
As the year came to an end I thought about a lot of things. It’s funny, it is only when the year is slowly approaching or when we’re going into a new year that everything becomes a big ball of reflection. So I sat in my “space” on the first day of January pondering my mistakes, my dreams, and mostly on ways that I could please the Lord. As I pondered on the year about to pass, the weight of my sins tugged on my heart more than ever and brought me to tears. Conviction and guilt flooded my soul causing my focus to shift. The initial plan of trying to make short-term/long-term goals to help me kick off the year had diminished, and my mind was drifting into the harsh realities of who I really was- a Christian girl struggling and trying to get it right.
To be honest, it has been extremely difficult; my rebellious heart often gets the best of me. As I got further into my walk I drifted from the Lord, the fire that used to be in me slowly was dwindling and somehow I was starting to enjoy my sin more than usual. My failings in relation to my relationship with God added to my stress of trying to maintain my closeness with Him. It was a constant struggle to keep my mind from slipping into my daily fantasies/day dreams about how perfect my life should be, while still trying to excel in the areas I fell short in. I couldn’t keep up, I was slowly losing my touch and the arms around me couldn’t help. For a while I felt alone and going to the Lord didn’t feel like the right thing to do. “I’m too messy” and “He hates me” are the statements that I kept replaying in my head over and over again like a never-ending song. I would go on google for the sole reason of trying to find the formula to be the perfect Christian. That ultimately wasted my time because I found nothing but unrealistic rules and guidelines that were hard to follow. I felt like these standards were not authentic and that is what I was looking for… I just needed someone to stand out on the mountain top and scream, “I’m a wreck! I want to live for You Lord, but I need all the help I can get.”
I don’t know if it is just me, but for some reason I feel like people never really want to be real with their struggles as Christians. We are always trying to meet standards and be presentable so others do not call us out on our mess. What exactly are we trying to prove?! The world is not our burden and we don’t owe our friends and families anything but to admit our mistakes and make it clear that perfection wasn’t made for humans. It is only through God’s gracious hands that we are perfected. There is something about people getting down and dirty about their faults that stirs me up. It puts me in check and repositions my focus to reality. It reminds me that this is not a race and I am not the only one struggling. It would be so refreshing to say, “Damn girl you are going through that too? Man, I thought I was the only one! Can we pray for each other?” Can you imagine a conversation like that? Wow, there is so much freedom in knowing that we can help one another get through the bumps in the road. Anyway, the point I’m trying to get across is that as we settle into the new year do not let your mistakes, your sins and your messy life get into the way of making it right with God. Don’t succumb to the lies of sin and the snares of the devil. It’s not worth dying in your sin in this sinful world, it’s really not worth it .We are not perfect but we serve a perfect God who perfects us. Repent, turn it around, set a schedule, and create space to give Him your time in an effort to cast your burdens onto Him. Of course you are going to have your hicks, and your flesh is going to win sometimes but don’t give up. Keep praying, and keep reading your word because if you don’t try then you have already failed. So please try I am praying for you all.
Cast
your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous
be shaken. (psalms 55:22)
For
the sake of His Love,
NanaOhh.
SIDE
NOTE *
“My space” is the place I visit often, it’s a place I go to hide from the trash
realities of the world and become one with my thoughts and God.*
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