Why I started Youtube ?

So for all my readers who don't know, I started a YouTube Channel. Now, I must admit the decision to do YouTube was out of the blue. I didn't expect to add YouTube as another thing on top of my schedule as a new years resolution. It was the farthest from my mind to be honest.  Anyways, about 5 years ago  I contemplated doing YouTube and never followed through with it. Eventually, the desire just slowly faded and was never taken seriously. Friends would always suggest I should do it, but the will to put myself out there for the world to see was something that frightened me.

I'm very big on my dreams. Other than his word I believe that's how God communicates with me. So early on this year I started having vivid dreams that I was doing YouTube. At first I just thought: man my mind is playing games with me or something. So I brushed it off like it was nothing. Not long after that dream I had a friend of mine randomly messaged me and suggested that I should consider starting at channel. At this point it was all noise to me. I had no desire to sit in front of a camera and record anything. With all the things going on in my life considering YouTube would be adding more on my plate then I could already handle.

I continued to ignore all the possible signs that maybe God was telling me something.  A few weeks after my friend messaged me I was having a conversation with my sister and the topic of YouTube came up AGAIN!!!! Then again I had a meeting with this girl who I was meeting for the first time, she mentioned to me that she had read my blog and she thought it would be a good idea to start YouTube. At this point I"M LIKE HOLD UP JESUS LIKE WHY CAN'T I LIVE ?. It was clear that Jesus was trying to get my attention, so I took it into prayer. I asked God that if he really wanted me to do this thing he would show me and the type of content he wanted me to do it on.

Although I was reluctant about the whole thing the idea of skin care and talking about my struggles with beauty kept coming back to me. But I ignored it and wanted to hear from God himself. Unfortunately after praying about it continuously I got nothing.  I think at this point the Lord was over me. He like Nana are you deaf or dumb ? lol I'm playing; but you get the point don't you? After about a month of not hearing from God I just ignored the thought of starting a channel.

Until one morning my friend Avrielle called me and told me that she had a dream that I wanted to record a video of me doing lipsticks swatches on her. Coincidentally, that same night I had a dream that I was watching myself on YouTube talking about beauty related things.

It was obvious what God was telling me at this moment. So I obeyed and just started it. While setting up my account God confirmed it to me again: the description of what my YouTube was about was already filled in saying " Beauty and "Skin Care". I totally forgot that when I had intended to start my YouTube Channel 5 years ago I wrote that in the description box.

To be honest I'm really not sure why God wants me to put myself out there. I'm reluctant about what such a platform does to people and that makes me so fearful of laying out all my flaws out for the world to see. This was no way a choice I made on my own and although I don't know what will come out of this, I came across this scripture that gave me so much peace about what I have chosen to do.

"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot. | Matt 5:13|

I am the salt of this world. The salt that refuses to lose it's taste!

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for the sake of his love, 

NanaOhh.