ABUNDANCE
Jun 13, 2015
You let men ride over our heads; we went through fire and water, but you brought us to a place of abundance.
|Psalm 66:10-12|
|Psalm 66:10-12|
FEARLESS
Open wounds
in my chest.
I’m no
longer afraid to let you in.
I want to be
me, what YOU intended me to be.
Silence.
Awake.
The Silence
kills,
Afraid that
I’ll lose myself.
Buried in
light,
Cus
darkness seems to be too right.
Wrong time,
left turn.
Obstruction
ahead.
Chaos.
Death.
Resurrection
in bed.
Goodbye to
the lies.
Alas, I’m
alive!
ONE
Jun 12, 2015
Chambers of the soul enclosed with kisses.
Distorted memories, blurred out visions.
Exhausted thoughts from the pain, if only I could run from it all into another dimension.
Free Rein!
Breathless, only to encounter the dangers of the past.
Desires to reconstruct, fears to adapt.
A lonely heart, time elapsed.
How can I really be me ? through blinded eyes that apprehend to see?
Truth is, the kisses have fed my soul and now have become one with the ONE in control.
For the sake of his Love,
NanaOhh.
A stamp of freedom
Jun 11, 2015
Wow, it's been such a long time since I sat down and poured out my emotions! I don't know if my heart has been heavy, my minds been clouded or my spirit is flat out dry within. Whatever it is, in the midst of this journey my mind has been struck down with so many things that I cannot even physically begin to put into words.
I'm a writer, or at least I would like to assume that I am. I find my escape in pouring out my heart on paper. I get an adrenalin rush every time the pen hits the pages, it's like a spontaneous combustion, a work of art or the feeling of falling in love for the first time! It's close enough to the high you get when you first experience God's love. And if you've never experienced that love then picture your first kiss with your crush-- it's exhilarating! A sweet escape! That is exactly how I feel when I get to run away into that place and let go.
For a very long time the battle of finding my passion was quite horrific. Just the thought of it made my stomach turn or clump into knots. I made myself believe that if I could just run away from anything that challenged my well being I would never have to encounter it again. Wrong! The challenges came, and every time I tried to escape, it followed me.
I was a caterpillar afraid to grow into a butterfly; I accepted the identity my parents wanted me to be and never had the urgency to even think about finding myself. I was afraid that if I stepped out the box I would lose myself or not meet the standards that were being measured against me. So I stayed in the box and chose not to grow. They wanted me to be a certain way so they could brag to their friends about me being a pharmacist, their perfect facade. It was safe and it assured them peace at night. But I was not at peace: I felt lost, numb and just flat out confused!
Being in a place of confusion sucks. Your mind messes with you; you question who you are and if there's any point to your existence. You subconsciously start to envy those around you because they seemingly have it all figured out. You are full of despair; you are sad, angry and discouraged. You throw yourself a pity party, and as weird as it sounds, the only thing that gives you a sense of relief is laying in your bed and crying yourself to sleep.You doubt and constantly replay your regrets in your head like a broken record. Trust me, I know; when I speak, I speak from experience because I've been there countless times.
It was not until I found the courage to ask, to speak and to rise above the fear that I found my art. I fell in love with a King and he started to form me into this glorious masterpiece. His thoughts for me were perfect; they aligned with his will. He showed me that the very thing that I was running from is the very thing for which I was created. So you're probably asking how did I figure it out ? When did I know for sure? Well you already know the answer; it's that desire that you can't stop thinking about. The ideas that float in your head but you're too afraid to even go for. It's the passion that you're afraid to admit to yourself that you have. It's your art, it's you, all that you were created to be!
So just don't settle because everyone has an opinion on how you should live your life, what you should do and when you should do it. Just don't settle because you are afraid. Fear is something that will rob you of your joy. As I sat in God's presence this morning, I came across a verse that reassured me: For all the promises of God find their Yes in him. That is why it is through him that we utter our Amen to God for his glory( 2
Corinthians 1:20 ). His promises are Yes's and our Amen solidify our gifts for his glory. So if you're still trying to figure what your gift is or the passion that you're so confused about, I encourage you to commit your plans to God and know that if he has placed the desire in you, his promises are Yes's and that Amen that you seal to end your prayer with will be a stamp that will bring glory to his name.
Commit your work to the LORD, and your plans will be established.(Proverbs 16:3)
For the sake of his Love,
NanaOhh.
Smooth Paths
Mar 19, 2015
I really wanted to share my devotions this morning from Isaiah 26:7-8. It put so much things in perspective for me, many times I struggle to trust God. I get easily frustrated or anxious if I can't seem to figure out where life is heading for me... I panic. Reading this verse made me realize that those who seek God and have died to their old ways and pursue righteousness, do not walk on steep or rough paths because God will smooth it out for them. Not only will He smooth out the paths that are currently rough in our lives but God will also smooth out the paths ahead of us too. As Christians what we need to ultimately do is to trust in Him and obey His word as He has command us to do. Sometimes it is not easy because I'm the biggest cry baby when it comes to trusting God and I am sure there are many who can relate with me, but I've realized that my feelings are fickle and they can change like the weather but the word of God stands forever. It is the word that enables us, gives us strength, wisdom, knowledge, understanding, wipes our tears and teaches us major principles on life and how to get by. GOD is so amazing, He freely works it out for our good when we don't deserve it. I'm so thankful for His mercies and His endless grace because who knows where we would be without them. I'm praying for all those who struggle to trust God, be encouraged you're not the only one. God is working, He will turn it around for His name sake!
For the sake of his LOVE,
NanaOhh.
NanaOhh.
Empty Call
Mar 9, 2015
I miss you, I miss all that we used to be.
I can't fix my lips to express myself to you anymore,
lately I've been feeling empty and alone and there's no one who really understands how I feel but YOU. To you I'll probably never be enough and it sucks and my heart aches. I just want to get it right with you, I want to sit in your presence, cry and experience your Love.
I want to laugh and love on you and tell you all that goes on in my day and in my heart...
But these idols beckon me.
They call and I run, they tug on this heart of mine and I give in.
I'm just so weak to it all
And I really just want to make you proud but I think to myself
I've probably gone too far .
I just need you to listen to my cry and if its ok with you, could you send your daughter some help?
Just a little grace to get by, and some peace to calm my storm...
Lord please keep me as the apple of your eye and restore the joy of my salvation.
I can't fix my lips to express myself to you anymore,
lately I've been feeling empty and alone and there's no one who really understands how I feel but YOU. To you I'll probably never be enough and it sucks and my heart aches. I just want to get it right with you, I want to sit in your presence, cry and experience your Love.
I want to laugh and love on you and tell you all that goes on in my day and in my heart...
But these idols beckon me.
They call and I run, they tug on this heart of mine and I give in.
I'm just so weak to it all
And I really just want to make you proud but I think to myself
I've probably gone too far .
I just need you to listen to my cry and if its ok with you, could you send your daughter some help?
Just a little grace to get by, and some peace to calm my storm...
Lord please keep me as the apple of your eye and restore the joy of my salvation.
"Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me"(Psalms 51:12)
For the sake of his Love
NanaOhh.
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